I love having 5 children. They are the joy of my life. I love every single one of them and wouldn't change who they are, but one struggle I've had is that I desperately wish that my little Hailey could have a sister. I grew up in a girl family where I had one brother and six sisters. I am close to my sisters and I talk to a couple of them every day. They are my best friends and we support one another through our ups and downs. More than anything I wish Hailey could have a sister because I love having sisters so much....don't get me wrong I love my boys and wouldn't give them up or trade them for a girl any day, I just want Hailey to have a sister to feel close to like I have.
Maybe I'm a little selfish and I should just be grateful for the wonderful and healthy kids that I have....and believe me I do feel thankful for that. Maybe a sister was just too much to ask for.
I have spent many fast Sundays fasting for myself to come to terms with the fact that Hailey won't have a sister. I don't really know the reason that she only has brothers but I know that there is a purpose for the way that things are. It still makes me sad, but I guess Hailey will never know what she is missing because she hasn't ever had it.