Mercy

As I've struggled with the sad feeling I've felt with Dave passing on, I have realized a few things. Last night as I thought of my sweet nieces and nephew I felt so sad for them. Fathers day is in a couple of days and I know they will be missing their dad. I think when someone looses their life at a younger age we tend to say things like "I guess the Lord must have needed them for something on the other side." There have been a few times that I have thought about my brother dying of his addiction. As I worried about him I have struggled to find comfort in the thought of someone dying as a result of their addiction. I felt like you couldn't really say that the Lord needed them because the addiction was the cause. As I mentioned this to my sister Leslie today on the phone she helped me to see something more spiritual. Maybe the Lord realized how much Dave was suffering and decided it was enough. I know that the Lord is merciful to us. In John 11:35 it Says "Jesus Wept" This was when he raises Lazarus from the dead. I think the profoundness of this scripture shows that he really understood how Mary and Martha felt. He had compassion for them. It shows me that the Lord has felt what we felt, after all he suffered for all of our sins. In Alma 42:15 it Says "And now, the plan of mercy could not be brought about except an atonement should be made; therefore God himself atoneth for the sins of the world, to bring about the plan of mercy, to appease the demands of justice, that God might be a perfect, just God, and a merciful God also. I really know that God is merciful. I don't understand why things happen the way that they do but I know that God knows what is in our hearts. I also know that Dave is at peace. I am so grateful for the mercy of God in my life.

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In Memory Of David Eugene Bashford

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Kristen said…
I think you're right on. It's so hard to understand. Why him and why that and why now. We all can ask that at different times in our lives.

"Peace, be still... And know that I Am."
June 18, 2010 at 11:22 PM
Amy F said…
Jenny! I am so glad you left a comment on my blog. I lost your blog address when we moved to UT and keep forgetting to ask you for it again. I've been thinking a lot about you and the loss of your ex-BIL. It really is hard to understand, but I like what your wrote about the Lord knowing our hearts.
June 20, 2010 at 10:04 AM
Christine Rowley said…
That was a good post! I think all of us are struggling with Dave's death even though he wasn't in the family anymore.
June 20, 2010 at 8:53 PM
Nicole Marsh said…
What a good way to put it!
June 21, 2010 at 8:58 AM
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